August 20th, 2013

Happy back to school everyone! After the second day of classes I can say that I'm officially beat and ready for fall break. I can say that I am genuinely excited for my two studio classes, acrylic painting and printmaking, which are both extremely expensive with supplies and all. I went out last night and dropped 60 bucks alone on paint, which is ridiculous, but could always be worse since I'm not using the highest quality of paint I could. I'm trying to burst out of my shell and meet new people, which is kind of going well considering I'm out of my element in three of my five classes. It's nice to have a set schedule because for the last week of summer I was literally sitting at home for hours on end not doing anything productive. Having a schedule really keeps me focused and will push me to try my hardest, especially with my sophomore review coming up. I'm currently sitting on the floor of my boyfriends tiny apartment, thinking about my day. It was long, and I had no time to eat, but I feel was rather successful. There will be much sleep to be had tonight, that is for sure. All I want to do now is curl up with something cold and watch a movie.

August 13th, 2013

It's been 14 days since I've posted anything! How has the earth gone on turning?! I've been feeling a lack of inspiration, or maybe it's inspiration with no motivation. Either way I've been lazy and grumpy. Honestly, when I'm not at work I am looking at wedding blogs, specifically Green Wedding Shoes, and listening to all kinds of music. Recently it's been a lot of follksy, acoustic-y stuff. This particular type of music makes me want to run in one direction and stop when I'm somewhere new. School is starting up in a little less than a week and I'm practically counting down the hours.
I am the type of person who hates not having a set schedule. Be here at this time, need to be home by this time, need to be ready by such and such hour. When I am sitting around idly I fidget and pace and think and get nothing productive done. I like going places to do things, like libraries or various work stations around WSU's art buildings. It makes me get my butt in gear and actually get stuff done.
I'm on the look out for a new source of inspiration but it comes in bursts and doesn't keep me satisfied as I work on a project. I started some collages over the summer but they all turned out as attempts, and not finished pieces. I feel frustrated whenever I put countless man hours into something that doesn't end up being what I intended. Maybe I need to take a trip somewhere, or do something out of my comfort zone. I just need to get out more, maybe that's it.

July 30th, 2013

This blog was intended to be mostly about my personal style and my photogaphy, but it's kind of turned into a little diary. Which I suppose is alright in some circumstances, but I need to get my foot in the door eventually. Here are some looks from the recent past as posted on my Lookbook.

July 29th, 2013

I'm hoping that I can pull my head out of my ass and learn to actually talk to people in my classes this semester. Being without my close friends during last school year was stressful, but with 18 hours and paying back loans with 4 hours a week at work I have a feeling that I'm going to be as stressed as ever. I'm excited for my classes but I don't know if I can handle the class load. The most worrying thing is that this is the semester I have to decide my major, or get left behind everyone who will be doing sophomore review during the spring semester.
It's hard to talk with people about my future because I get a little depressed. Art History is amazing and I want to be a part of it's preservation but there is absolutely no way I'll be able to get a job until I get my doctorate.  Considering the fact that I'll be starting to take out aid this semester, I'll be in super debt by the time I get my doctorate meaning I will never be financially stable enough to do anything I want to do as a grown adult.
I've come to the depressing conclusion that I will be alone and poor for the rest of my life. Maybe that's exactly my fate, but it sucks either way.

Apologies for the long faced blog post.

July 27th, 2013

I always realize I'm not wearing jewelry after I take pictures, or rather my brother takes pictures of me. He is a real trooper when it comes to this kind of stuff. I just hate lugging my tripod out to the middle of the street and getting weird looks. I'm feeling a little confident today, which is why I'm wearing these sky high Litas. Only time will tell if I actually wear them to work. I'm currently planning on it. I'm still feeling really relaxed this morning from my yoga session, and I'm hoping that it lasts through the entire fashion show and work day. I haven't mentioned the fashion show yet, have I? Fingers crossed I don't fall off the stage. 

July 26th, 2013 sidenote

Two posts in one day? WHAT?

I had a conversation yesterday that I've been thinking about for a long time and it's really been an interesting topic to my brain (Did that even make sense?) The topic is: Hair! As most of you know, I had long hair up until November of last year (2012, for those of you who can't count) Example below

I look like a gross hippie.

After a long, LONG debate with myself I finally decided to chop it all off. My hair is really fine and stringy, making it hard to manage or really do anything with. It was always messy and always everywhere. I hated it, I hated the way it looked and I hated the way it made me look. It was impossible for me to feel pretty with hair that was tangled and un-manageable. It was a big, ballsy step for me to cut it all off into a pixie after having it so long for, well, so long. 

I feel a lot more feminine with short hair, believe it or not. After I cut it all off I began to take some risks with the clothes I wore, bright prints, weird color combinations, skirts!. It brought out a side in me that I would have other wise never found if it wasn't for the cut. Under all that hair was a beautiful young woman. I don't see myself not having short hair for a long time. One: it's darling and I feel pretty, and two: my hair takes forever to grow. Who want's to experience that awkward grow out phase? I sure don't. 

I hope that if you are considering cutting off your hair that you will take this post into consideration. It is a huge step, and everyone has a length that their comfortable with. Believe it or not, I received a hair cut that I thought was too short! But hair grows, it's all reversible. Take baby steps if you're not sure. Being someone who has had many different hair styles, I knew I was ready for a big change. Please contact me if you have any concerns about this kind of transition.

While my hair is not as short as it was when I first got it cut, I enjoy it's crazy unpredictability, and I love my fire hydrant red color even though it has successfully stained everything I own. 

Thanks for reading.

July 26th, 2013

The other day I had the pleasure of photographing one of my good friends Ashlynn. The photos of her are gorgeous and I had trouble finding images that would supplement her silhouette. I'm hoping to continue doing shoots like this during the school year since I will have access to actual studio lighting, instead of using my storm window as a back drop. A huge thanks to Ashlynn for letting me photograph her. They turned out wonderfully. Stay tuned for more photos as I continue to edit!

This one is definitely my favorite.

This particular image was actually done in camera, I just made it back and white in photoshop.